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to all those who are still walking with me...

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thank you sooo much! i owe you a post! ^_^

going back...

"It's time I got back, it's time I got back
'n I don't even know how I got off the track
I wanna go back, yeah!"

these words from the song "the good life by the weezer". it popped in to my mind while i was hand washing some undies and socks earlier this eve... DANG!!! and i felt how much i'm missing my old life, my old self... most of us yearn for a change. that is certain! and i have always wanted at least a little part of my life to change. and i mean BETTER change... since i took this teaching job, i never felt comfortable and i believe that it's supposed to be fun. i should be having fun. but what is wrong?

i am beginning to forget the meaning of the word. it's because i really don't like it. (i just have to be honest.. pardon me) the kids in my class are all fine. though some of them are really hard to handle... and again, i beg for your understanding but i believe that i am not the right one for the job. this job pays less than one human being could ever imagine and requires tons of patience. from the start, i have always been nice and sometimes grouchy. but i never tried a stick or at least show them that i don't like them. i always made sure that i am equip with the right lesson plan and materials. and not only that... i gave them the best attention that i can offer (not even my own kids are so privileged to get that attention) you see, i tried and tried and until now i keep trying to give them all i could even if i get so little and even if their unmindful, paranoid and nagging moms does not appreciate it!!! (pant! pant!) BUT there is always an end for everything especially if it is becoming your worst nightmare! just last saturday i was accused by one of the moms of being un-teacher like and harassed me through a phone call. it almost slipped from my tongue that i am not what she think i am and that she doesn't know me well and that she has no right to tell me those barbaric words that she kept saying to me! and of course, as always, i still approached her with all humility and didn't try to answer back. but only God knows how much i wanted to fly to their house at that very moment and push her cell phone down to her throat!!! (pant again!) and until now i am terrified by that phone call... one thing more... my sore throat worsen... it's been on and off for like a month now and i haven't been checked by a doctor. no time for that... my voice is still hoarse and it aches badly. i'll try to see a doctor this weekend and ask for a medical certificate and YES! i will file a resignation to the office next week.

you might say that i am the worst person ever that you've met. i don't give a damn. my kids will suffer if i'll go on like this. they have been deprived of my precious time for quite so long now. my poor youngest daughter can't keep up with her lessons in school. that's because i don't have time to sit and teach her anymore. it's funny... damn funny! i teach these kids and yet i can't do the same thing with mine... she's in pre-school and she really needs attention. my attention! i don't want to see her growing up and blaming me for all the poor grades that she'll get in the future. i guess, it's time that i should get back to my good old life.

i mean better old life...

awards?______i want! ^_^ UPDATED!!!

i just got an award from Tanya! that was "wow!" and has brighten up my gloomy day! thank you Tanya for including me in your pick!

this is my first ever blog award!!! oh my!!! ^_^

another great news: i would have to pass this on to 15 other bloggers! so please check out my list!

RULES!!!

The Best Blog Award rules are:

1. To accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his/her blog link. don't forget to leave a comment!
2. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you have recently discovered and think are great! Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

my choice of blogs:
1. my sister (it's true!) C
2. madame K
3. effa
4. lilize
5. marisa
6. meeya
7. these are the days of my life!!
8. Muza -chan
9. Pineapple Princess
10. Kyutie
11. Angelnowhere
12. annie are you okay?
13. independentmami
14. jael custom designs
15. the girl with the flour in her hair

i_wander: "i won!"

 i should've posted this a week ago but i was so tied up with my chores (like most moms are, ya'know!) and i didn't find the time to post it here. this is a necklace that i've won from a contest in MAF. now what is MAF? you'd ask, right? click the banner, please.

it is a site where lolitas, gyarus, decoras, j-pop, k-pop fashion and more meet and share their love for these Asian fashion styles and lifestyles. i became a member there months ago and i became one of the site moderators. (you might want to check out my post about it here) i could tell many stories about that community but not today. i am in so hurry and i have to keep this entry short.

anyway, one of the nicest member from new york sponsored a contest about a month (or so) ago... and we were encouraged to join. she made some pretty necklaces and have asked the members to choose one that would fit their personality and tell her why. i chose this design for i think it fits me well. it has a piece/slice of cake with a skull. why? it's just that i know i can be as sweet or even sweeter just like that cake but i can also be deadly when i get angry. LOL! scary, huh? not really... i think i have an "extreme" personality... i don't know. only people who are close to me can tell...

fortunately, my answer was chosen and i won that lovely cutie necklace! and now it's here! i got this last week.. i needed to take good photos that's why this is so late...

i reeeally ehl-oh-vee-eee it!

maybe one day i'd be able to tell you more about that lovely site and the people who are in there... that place is more than just a website to me. it is my second home. i found the best people in the web through that site. and i have learned more than just Asian fashion from them. i maybe too old for that place but they welcomed me warmly and most of them showed respect to me just like to an older sister. and i'm greatly honored. ^_^

 btw, i've mentioned that i love the necklace but tell you what... i love the wrapper too!

i heart bubble wrap! do i need to tell you why? ^_^

contest! contest!

i have to admit! i like joining contest online! well, duh?! who doesn't? (click the photo above)

i am joining this one not only because i want to win this fab stuff but also to promote my friend's site.

kyutie.com is a cute fashion blog by my online friend Kyutie! she's an Asian Fashion Lover and a Filipina like me! to know more about her, feel free to visit her site. you can join her contest too! so what are you waiting for? you can also win stuffs when you refer a friend to this contest. i'm sure, you will not only enjoy this contest but her whole website as well. it is awesome, young, cute and fun!

see yah there! ^_^

just like me

i'm currently enjoying my week long vacay from the noise and from my day job. ooh-lala! i finally started knitting and loom-ing... well, i have used the loom and started casting some yarns on its pegs. but due to the so many things-to-do, i wasn't able to finish it. and because i am so excited with the needles, i decided to start learning how to knit... thanks to so many videos or how to's guide to knitting and such, i am now working on my first swatch... i am lovin' it! geesh! it's a whole lot different from crochet... the stitches are a lot better. it can be stretched longer than that of the crocheted ones. hmmm... i am looking for an easy pattern at ravelry.com... that site is like heaven! see for yourself why i love that place so much...

(this is my first swatch)

until now, i am in search for good quality yarns that i can use with my looms... the looms that mom got for me requires chunky yarns. unfortunately, the yarns that she bought were eyelash yarns. my mom is always like this... i remember when she asked me some 3 years ago, which do i prefer the most, high heeled shoes or sneakers? i answered, high heeled shoes. then the next thing i know, my shoe rack was filled with dozens of HHS! now, she's buying eyelash yarns like crazy! LOL!

anyway, when i took my daughters to the mall two weeks ago, i saw a store that sells craft materials (mostly cross stitching materials)... OMG! the name of the store is "Heavenly Stitchin' Moment". i was so lucky that day not only because i was able to find a huge roll of yarn (really bigger than the usual that sells here) but i found these on the sale rack:

speaking of yarns, i want to show you the difference of the yarns that i bought from them and from the yarns in my drawer...

 

see?

even if they're not chunky, i can use them with my looms along with the eyelash yarns and i can make a good shawl or scarf. then, i will give it to mom... eeeeeep! i'm excited!

now, here's the progress of my loom.

the moment my daughter set eyes on this, she asked for it and promised me to finish it. now, we are both sitting quietly and knitting happily!

 

i'm working with the needles, while she with the loom..

 i guess she'll become a great craft lover too... just like me! ^_^

what the...?????

classes are suspended in our area due to the aftermath of the storm.

and to me, this means more time to:

* sleep

* knit

* read

* procrastinate a little bit

* crochet (a little maybe)

* make my lesson plans for the coming weeks

* think of the what's best for the upcoming Halloween celeb for the kids

* blog  

i'm excited! i'm happy! i'm celebrating! aaaaaahck! 

(deep down inside me is like this photo...) 

so i guess, i'll be seeing you often this week til the week ends... muah!