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i haven't been able to post anything lately... i have been very busy with my new job. yes. i got a new job. ^_^ it's kinda funny because the job requires a LOT of patience. i teach computer subject to 2nd, 3rd, 4th graders. OMG?! yes! OMG!!! i have kids of my own and all of them are very independent. we don't usually sit together to work on their assignments or home works. i do help them a little on their school projects but not on a regular basis. and because of this new job, i am now suffering from guilt.

i feel bad as if i am torn into pieces because when you try to look at it, i am teaching other kids... not my own children. was it because i am getting paid? was it because i am a bad mother? was it because i am lazy? i don't know. as of the moment, i am not really sure of the answers.

right now i feel like i just need to go with the flow and find the answers later...

maybe i am not a typical mom. my ways are different. one thing is certain... i love my children and that i am trying to be a good mother to them.